Thursday, June 11, 2009
Haiz...To a large extent, i feel that i have been quite slack nowadays. Though i try my best to activate the 'nerd' mode, it seems so hard!!! Compared to secondary school, i feel that i have not been working hard at all! My memory is also deteriorating..Back in sec 1, i can really memorise every single thing within the book, now when i try to memorise stuff, i will forget it the next day! So angry with myself. So upset with my pace and attitude towards study nowadays. When i looked around me, i see a lot of my classmates and friends working so hard. I want to be like them too, but then...
WHY AM I BLOGGING IN THE FIRST PLACE? ARGH!!
Everything don't seems to be on track nowadays. I am constantly worried about a lot of stuff in my life.
But when friends come to me and tell me that they are not doing very well in their revision, i cannot do anything but to encourage them to relax and try their best. Why can't i say the same things to myself? I don't think my best is enough to get me the results i want.
And to think that my birthday falls just a week before JCTs just makes it worse! Here goes my 18th birthday! ARGH...Really hope to go out on that day, but i guess i would be staying at home and celebrating with my notes. Even if i want to go out, i would think that everyone would be busy doing their last minute mugging too. Don't want to think about it anymore, let just see how it goes lor..
I really pray that all my problems in my life will soon be solved. There are so many things i wished to accomplish within this holiday besides studies alone...
Rise up, my love, my fair one,
And come away.
For lo, the winter is past,
The rain is over and gone.
The flowers appear on the earth;
The time of singing has come,
And the voice of the turtledove
Is heard in our land.
The fig tree puts forth her green figs,
And the vines with the tender grapes
Give a good smell.
Rise up, my love, my fair one,
And come away!
I wish my winter would past soon...
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